I’m feeling really tired and I think it’s because I began focusing on my food intake and my physical activity levels, in the hopes of losing weight. The Wellbutrin has curbed my appetite and I lost an easy 10 lbs so I got inspired to lose more. I registered on a site called http://www.choosemyplate.gov/supertracker-tools/supertracker.html that helps “plan, analyze, and track your diet and physical activity.” So, for 3 days I’ve been going on this site and inputting everything I eat for each day and the exercise I do. Great idea, right?
In theory, yes. In practice, I’m run-down and irritable from the healthy eating plan. It’s become a burden that I don’t feel ready to take on. I’ve lost 50 lbs before (operative word here) but I had more self-motivation than I have right now. But, I’ve lost 15 lbs and last night I dropped another 1/2 pound. You may see where this is going. I’m obsessing slightly and setting up an expectation that I must do this — or else! So, I feel compelled to keep going.
To help with my irritability I took 1/2 my Klonopin at 6 pm and I’ll take the other half at bedtime (when I normally take all of it). The pill made me so tired I can barely keep my head up and I’ve got things to do, including get the kids to put their clean clothes away (since Sunday), get them to clean up their school papers that are scattered all over the house and go to the store to pick up milk for breakfast.
The truth, what’s one more day with the mess? Let Husband get the milk. I should care for myself, put on my nightie and slippers and go watch tv on the couch. The family would probably like it better if I stopped bitching at them and just chilled out so that’s what I’ll do.
First, I need to input the food I ate today into choosemyplate. I’m pretty sure I reached my target of calories and exercise so that is good (I think).♥