November 27, 2011 — Taken from the “About” page —
I’m a 40 ish female, married with 2 kids. I grew up in the NE of the US. I’ve battled depression my entire life.
I’m well-educated and consider myself perceptive and knowledgeable about depression. I’ve come to understand and accept the causes are childhood sexual abuse and the dynamics of my childhood.
I’ve taken a multitude of SSRI’s and every professional tells me “you’ll be on antidepressants for the rest of your life.” I challenge that assertion.
I’m just coming off Pristiq and I’ve made a choice to go drug free. In my hands, I have a Rx for Wellbutrin which is one of the few meds I haven’t tried yet but I’m holding off on filling the Rx until I feel depressed again. No drug has been a miracle cure so I’m reluctant to start on another.
Is my depression cured? Or will I hit the bottom? How long will it take without my meds? I have a new therapist and with her help I’m going to see if I can learn to live in the now without medication. I know my childhood circumvented the important task of helping me effectively deal with my emotions so it might not be long before I get pulled down hard into a major depression. But, I hope all the psychotherapy and soul-searching I’ve done has taught me how to acknowledge, accept and express my feelings more appropriately. Is it simply a matter of serotonin and norepinephrine or do I have some control over this nightmare called depression? We shall see.
I will write in this blog at a minimum of once a week and probably more. Join me.